The anger I feel after I burn a dish on the stove is comparable to a hissy fit and that is what I had after the live stream last night. After 7 days of streaming, there were still technical issues, mainly “I don’t know how to do that, yet” issues. So, the video was glitching. The days before this it was dialing in the audio quality. To stream to our YouTube channel and our Facebook page, we had to figure out the adjustments. Now the audio was great, but the video wasn’t streaming properly. Feeling defeated, I started to archive the video and a few others I deemed mediocre, otherwise known as “learning how to do it” quality.
Just in the past few years, while educating my kiddos, I have embraced the fact that “you learn by making mistakes.” I am pretty sure when I was young, I would do anything to make this not true. Lots of denial on this one. “I have to walk around, just messing up in front of people…to learn! That’s the human condition! Come on!”
And even now as I struggle to find the value in these first live streams, I keep telling myself (and Aaron) these truths:
Daily live streaming…
(I love this acronym – BEE)
These above items are the motivating factors to keep going,
and we must keep remembering:
It is ok to show our vulnerabilities, aka mistakes…this includes but is not limited to forgetting your own lyrics, running glitchy video, over driving the mics, not having enough energy, bad lighting, etc.
It is ok to just do your thing, and no, it doesn’t look like everyone else’s things…that is the way it is supposed to be. That’s art!
It is important to pinpoint the joy, the moments of happiness, while working on something that is using up all your will power. That will power stuff is a limited resource. Don’t spend it being upset at yourself for trying to learn something because you know that something will eventually benefit you.
So we stopped archiving our videos last night. What we thought was unworthy, three other folks thought very differently and donated to our PayPal and Venmo.
We see you and appreciate you! Thank you for doing the same for us. With your generous spirit we saw our own value, when sometimes it is hard to see.
We are sending love to everyone that has been watching and listening to our music!
We are live streaming nightly at 7:30pm from our YouTube page – www.youtube.com/thehighcrest and on our Facebook page – www.facebook.com/thehighcrest.
(For now, rely on YouTube…FB is still getting dialed in)